Victoria_lynx3

tomorrowssunshine:

You feel lost. You feel confused. You feel as if you have no purpose in this life. Do you feel like you are in the dark tunnel there is no hope for light to peep in? Well there is hope. There is hope, there is light. You have to find it within yourself. I will tell you when I was a young girl to about my late teen years I was lost, who am I kidding I didn’t even know who I was or why I was still here taking up space. I struggled with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and bipolar my entire life. I suffered from self harm and attempts of wanting to leave this world. In reality it never really let the pain go it just covered it up and numbed it for the time being. What is your reason for doing this? Can you remember who you were before someone or something ruined you? Close your eyes and think of all the good that has never happen to you or within your life time and smile. Just smile even if it is for a split second. Think back of what you did to make yourself feel whole and your soul was fed. When you figure it out, Write it down! Yes write it down so when you are in this dark place again least you can reads the good that made your smile hit cheek to cheek, but now I need you to close your eyes again and think and vision yourself being what you dream of being no matter what it is , its not stupid. Your dreams are your dreams. Now tell yourself what you need to do to get there. Write it down. Then make the steps to get you there , weather it be to be happy, to lose weight, to love yourself, to travel, to go to school. Just pick your dream and go for it.

tomorrowssunshine:

As I was growing up I lived with my mother and father. My home life was not healthy nor the less. I always heard fighting, screaming and yelling. My mother was always a hard worker and did all she could for me to have what I wanted and needed.

My father is a unique man. Love him dearly but growing up I never really knew if he loved me or even adored me the way a father is supposed to. He was always “working” or out of town for something. When he was home it was always yelling or always degrading comments. Do not get me wrong I love my father but I don’t think I was ever his princess in fact his queen.

Ever feel self conscious? Well let me tell you, you shouldn’t. why? Because you are beautiful no matter any flaw you have. At 12 years old my father was sitting in his truck talking with me and told me my peach fuzz on my neck which all of us women have will be a beard one day. So being upset I went in the house shaving it thought it would make it go away and I wouldn’t be ugly anymore. At 25 years old I have to take care of it for the rest of my life. Don’t like your body? Well you should because you are beautiful/handsome. Growing up my father would tell me I was going to be fat. I am a plus size women and I won’t lie I struggle once and a while trying to love myself. Whether you are skinny or bigger you are beautiful just the way you are.

If there is anything I can do for you while reading this I want to be able to have you relate in some way and for you to open your eyes that every pitch black tunnel, that light does peak in.

tomorrowssunshine:

There are going to be days that you just want to cry, don’t let anyone tell you to stop crying or that it doesn’t change anything. Myself, I cry a lot. I feel as if you take all of your emotions out you feel better, yea to be honest it may not change anything but it releases’ all the emotion you have in a productive way. i know many of us suffer from all different types of hurt and don’t know what one to focus on more. We have to focus on the positive. Every negative always has a positive.

When you feel as if you cant keep hanging on anymore just please for the people around you that love you and care for you but most importantly do it for YOURSELF. No one needs you more than YOU. Many of us may struggle with demons every single day whispering into our ears telling us the bad way is the easiest way, that all the good you do is tougher and more hard than the awful ways because in all reality it is.

We all cope in different ways. Some of us cope with crying, self harm, meditating, drugs, drinking, reading, writing etc. for yourself find a healthy way to cope, a genuine way to cope. Like I said in the introduction I have suffered from many mental illnesses in my life and still do, I have been down the awful paths of life and let my demon take me over at some points. Let me tell you this: DO NOT LET HIM WIN. Do not ever be ashamed of who you are. You are human.

“YOU are BRAVER than YOU believe. STRONGER than YOU seem, and SMARTER than YOU think”

(via s3xualdesires)